心，付出越多， 伤，就会越痛

心，付出越多， 伤，就会越痛。

最近， 看到一个朋友的悲伤， 搞得我也觉得很伤心， 虽然我们不时很熟的朋友， 但我很想去关心她， 但也不知道该怎么去关心， 还好她有一班好好的姐妹朋友哦。

我也很害怕， 我， 好容易爱上， 也好容易放弃。 也许是我好害怕那种心纳闷 很痛很痛 的感觉， 但是也有人说过：
‘不怕去爱， 只怕没爱过！’ 怎样都好， 如果悲伤来了，也会让人后悔吧。。 但我很想去相信这句话哦

一但把心给了， 就会不知不觉的付出很多
很讨厌这样的我，因为伤会让人很辛苦 ， 加油哦， 不管怎样，我们都还有家人的关怀， 爸， 妈， 你们是最棒的！

好想念他们哦，为了工作， 他们现在人英国。。 我姐也很棒的哦， 虽然， 我们有时候会突然吵起驾来， 不管怎样， 姐妹在同一个屋顶长大的， 是没隔夜仇的！


妈！ 你好酷哦！！
Yeap that's my mom! when i was about 8-10 years old.. i guess XD


Back to study/ working life..

This sem's almost Over, just few more weeks left, and I'll only left one more semester staying in Lim Kok Wing , Gonna miss the good time alot.

Even on today, I cherish the moments we laugh in class, joking n kidding on each others, even amongst our lovely student and lectures, awwwww its gonna be so so sad when things are all over T_T ..

"Stop Drawing already, U have draw for 5 years, Go do your music"
Thanks xinle, I actually like what u told me, I wanna try going into a full time musician, perhaps for at least one year, even if i will fall or fail, i will try my best. Life is Short, Just go do what you want.

But do not misunderstand me, it doesnt mean i dont like what i am doing right now, but i just know my desire point to music more. The path right im going thru right now is what reality makes me, + its one of my passion, seeing the results, gave me satisfaction n happy feelings :)

If life is all only about earning money, we cant really enjoy life. But I will not deny the importance of money, have to face the reality sometimes huh?

Life is a silly Roller Coaster

Gambateh Everyone!!
Lots of love...

Kae

How ya all doing for mid Sem Break?

Thanks Ann, esther, ann's brother, and ryan (for washing the dishes? lol)
for the Dinner on my Bday :3
And 22April for a mini Karaoke seesion :D
Althought I really hope for a cake thou T.T

Sem breaks almost over, and i still have alot of work havent finishhhh!
My mood to work wants turned off >.<.. but still manage to do some, imma gonna try finish the texturing after thiss. I wonder how could i finish the ALL the arts asset model texturing by my own.. no one in group that can help me.. T_T

Im blur on Mr.Hilmy class business plan thing.. and need alot of commitment on Mr Kevin's Unreal Cinematics... ooommggggg!!

Good Luck Kae, look things at the bright side, life is full of ups n down, Passing a day with Joy is 100 % better than passing ur day with sadnesss !

muaksss
Kae

21 April

Half of the semester have pass, alot of works needs to be done, well as usual. Nothing much special, except for the good times hanging out with friends :). Finishing works do give me a good feeling too. and music BOOZE up my mood dramatically, if i have the mood to play it :3


Wish my family n friends happy and healthyyy foreverr!! <3 muacks

Woot! Let the FUN BEGINS....

FUN = CLASSES ?
Yay or Nay??

Ive done registering at school, and now just more stuff shifting to my new room at Desaria. Hopefully can get Unifi / Streamyx, as long as its better than previous shiitty internet.

Awesome schedule we have this sem, no im not being sarcastic this time haha, 2 days class per week :)
Hopefully it will be fun for what waiting us ahead, Love working with enthusiasm , motivated and hardworking ppl! (** hinting sumthing* ) :P

Writing out wat happen in the past really need use my brain juice, and makes me emo, so many bad bad things happened, pls let it be grace for the rest of the year ... :)

Lots of HUGSS n Kiseess! Muaks

Hppy Chinese New YEar~~

Yay ITs CNY Eve today~

My family dont have time to cook, so we ordered a poon choy, in which 12 people also cannot finish,



credits to my sis / bro in law who fast fast took the pic before it ends up in our stomach

Im tottally looking forward to ALOTSSS of things ~
Tomoro - Grandma house, cant wait to see all my playful cousins, and funny aunties and uncles .. Its been a long time, i guess its 1 year already that I did not visit Ampang, I was totally faraway :(

Oh .. goshh.. i miss my "ku po po " as well.. She's the one who take care of me when im still a baby.. and she's actually very old ady, okay.. i want go back kepong baru on Cho 2, - 3nd day of CNY :)

I love her sooo so much, alot of memories, she's like a 2nd mom to me .. My mom n dad was working n no time to take care of me, so I stayed with Ku po po for about 7 years, age :1 -7 if im not mistaken. She's like a superwoman...
My both mommy n ku po po.. both r superwomann ~
My grandma ( mom's mother, another superwoman) too is another great woman, she is wise, and im gonna see her tomoro :) <3 <3


And also - 1st time got ANG POW from my sistar~~ ahahaaa!
more ang pow tomoro~ yay ~~

After CNY, Class gonna start soon, I am sooo missing all my friends, i feel so lonely during holidays :(..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, GONG XI GONG XI!!
Gambatehhh~ for our futures~ <3

CNY Nearing soon :)

Seems like the internship's been cancel.. well.. no zbrush classes for me then.

And it is too late for finding other jobs thou.
ANyway i tried to worked as a primary school teacher for 2 days.. haha yeap 2 days , because i did not take Chinese subject in SPM. And there i found there's a Malay women teaching there, i wonder did she too chinese subject as well.

Life is not fair right. But I dont really mind, Im not a teacher type person anyway, I dont have much good memories about my pre / highschool teachers.. i guess that is why.. hahahaa.
Only for 2 days,, hmm , seriously.. the kids are darn CUTE, but also can be Darnn noisy , bamboo stick is realllly needed if u really want to discipline them.

老师， 他打扰我
老师， 他很坏蛋
老师， 他们很吵
老师， 我门要换坐位 。。。

etc etc.. they can really have a whole bunch of complains and question :x
and they dont line up for them. facepalm*

Need to get some things out of my head, need some new beginning, then only can forget the past. the book :

"Who move my cheese"

It was really a nice read. Everybody should have a read on it, no matter who u are, its about life, things that you should let go, to make room for new things :)

外表有时看起来很开心，
但其实心里很伤心，
很多的事物， 他们都很喜欢留在脑袋，
不时 不时 ， 又喜欢跑出来，
折磨 折磨 我，
很难逃脱。

你是这样的人， 但你也没发现，
我也是这样的， 能笑 也不代表我很开心。。
但开开心心的过一天， 好过阵天苦着脸

那些， 都是借口 而已吧，
还是我听不明白， 直接点吧，
我应该能接受， 就算不能，
我还有我的 亲爱的 时间， 帮我疗伤

Happy new year 2011!

I might be going for 1 or 2 months internship with sifu during this holiday.
Hopefully I can learn some zbrush skill :).

I when to The Curve for countdown during new year eve with some SC fellows, it was pretty fun. After that we when to a Pub. There's suppose to be clubbing on 1.1.11, but I didnt go, well guess better luck next time. I was looking more forward for karaoke session, or movie :P

So After a big long sem, its time for some gathering with my girls again. Choo Jiat is back in Malaysia, bu pretty soon she needs go back hometown.. again.. But we had a mini shopping n dinner night at the curve bfore new year. I didnt bought any new things thou.. sob sob*..

Meeting new friends from SC fella'a was quite fun. I think Ive really change quite a bit, its usually harder for me to mix with new friends, especially a big group who speak english. I found out Fatinah, Ili they all are really a very friendly group which i can mix in easily.

But its sad, when i get to know the SC ppl, there's actually something.. or 'alot' of things that happenned in the past, that separated some of the members. It reminds me again...
Fuu.. i wish I will NEVER meet back those SCaarrry people again.. who? well.. for me, its usually girls. In this case I guess its a girl. Hate confrontation. Why are some people get sensitive so easily that they will try their best to screw up your life.. Its not really happening to me. yet... It just reminds me of some Bitch during my primary and high school years.

Why want make enemies? People just love to get hurt dont they? We human could never learn the word "grown ups" ? But there are some really good people anyways :)

Ive been catching Glee this few days. The best singer in glee, Rachael??.. not really agree.. I dont really fancy the "The only exception" she sang, which is Paramore songs. Her sounds not bad but I definitely know there are better singer in that group. Still, she is quite good, im not saying tat she's bad. :P

Talking about Paramore... sad case, it really broke me down, Josh and Zac are the brothers that first form Paramore. Hayley is being quite selfish here. Goshh.. I use to love her alot, her voice is still amazing. After reading Josh blog I guess my impressions just kinda budge a little about hayley. I dont think she can EVER Find a great guitarist n drummer like Josh n Zac , Her father is quite a nuisance thou, thats your daughter's life for god sake, being a control freak doesnt help.

And hell, my stomach hurts and My was dizzy i feel like fainting today. Dont feel like going out these few days after having really great fun outings few days ago.
But I still miss my friends, I hope for more outings thou :)

Ciao all..
Happy New Year, Bless you all and me to have a great coming year